Wish I Could

I beg to find repentance in the crutch of your words
So close to you but far enough to ache
There are so many things I long to tell you
But the silence makes this easier to take;
I wonder how long you’ll stay around
Until your heart discovers deeper love
I wonder if you’ll think of me
When she gives you all the things I can’t give up.
Counting down the days instead of making memories
I wish I could believe you
I wish you were here.

Nothing Left

A step away from happiness but all I feel is loneliness
A feeling you will leave any day;
A moment frozen within my mind
Not too soon to rewind time and reminisce on the memory of me and you.
I reach for the surface towards the exterior of this core
Dangling on the fact that you may require more;
I am useless to you although I am needed
Surrounding me with words that have more meaning,
My thoughts of inhibition rise to the surface
And I am simply too much to exude.
Are the words you write simply that?
Words and only words
No emotion
No dedication
No feeling behind the feelings;
No depth to fill the hollowness within me.
You’ll leave me be
I’ll let you see, the girl I have become without you.
My heart won’t heal
These wounds won’t fade
Nothing left to paralyze me.